Where is God?

As I sit here tonight reading over the responses to previous blogs I am joyed by the continued support and prayers of so many. Rod had mentioned in one about the ministry in misery. When I did my internship working in a hospice, I found that working with families during the grief and stress was some of the closest times that I have been with God. I have had friends die from Cancer, great people, men of God. Where was God? RIGHT THERE! As I have posted before God is in this very room, he is in the loving words and comments that get posted in this blog, He is with the Dr.s, Nurses, Techs, and even the guy that drives the cool vacuum up and down the hall who keeps the kids entertained! God did not give Debbie this cancer, He did not make all of this happen, it just happens.

God created a world in which change is possible, growth is possible. Just look at all the marvelous things that come out of the miracle of change. Polio is all but gone, (at least in the US) penicillin was invented, heck even x-rays have helped make our lives much better. But none of the progress would come without the ability of people to notice that at the smallest level things change, in the case of cancer, it is likely a genetic shift that causes the cells to split, and then they just keep splitting. There is no malice in the cells as they mutate.

There are many people even at this very minute on a Saturday night huddled in a lab, watching some gel finishing its course so that they can see what is happening at the smallest levels. God is with that person, helping them with wisdom, knowledge and patience...lots of patience, I remember the days of driving to the lab in the middle of the night while Debbie worked on her Bio-Chemistry Doctorate. There is a reason she switched to Vet Medicine! :) I digress, and I ramble, but I hope you see my heart.

God is with us, he has helped us prepare for this difficult time. Ryan lost 3 cats and a dog when they died, he began to understand death very early. I worked in a hospice for a short time. Debbie lost her dad when she was only 2. Did God cause those things to happen? No, He is just reminding me of them so that I can see that our family is prepared, and that He is with us.

Please when you get angry over all of this, heck when I get angry about all of this later, remind me of this night. God is in this room. Jesus wept for the loss of his friend. He knows our pain. Joel as you said, we are not spending a lot of time reading the Bible right now, we are living the very essence of the relationship. We are grieving the changes, we are angry, we wish things could be different, we will be full of hope, and full of the knowledge that no matter what course this cancer takes, we are walking hand in hand, arm in arm with our Father who is not in heaven, He is in this room.

Thanks for reading this rambling stuff, sometimes when the stress gets too big I just lean on God, and especially when my blood sugar is low, I just feel the need to share the joy of our Lord and Savior! Have a blessed night. We will.